Chaois of Life

It is strange... I keep forgetting I have this blog.... I so need to remember and write...
Note to self.... BLOG!!!!

Life is so crazy. I can't belive my baby is 1 and my boy is almost 4... Nathan is 13 months old and walking and talking (well I understand him.... ), he was my suprise gift and I love him dearly...
Cameron will be 4 in a month and is full of energy and spunk, along with an attitude..(hmmm not sure where he gets that.... ha!) I love them both and only wish I could find that love when they are driving me up a wall... Being a mom was something I always thought about but never really focused on... I knew I would have kids some day, but didn't figure I would be a Stay at Home Mom to 2... Life sure throws a lot of curve balls my direction. I'm often not sure where I am heading...

Have you noticed how expensive groceries are...? I even shop at the discount grocery story (Love my Grocery Outlet and Costco) but even than I spent over $60 and it doesn't seem like I got that much... didn't buy diapers this time, or beer, or soda... just food stuff... Luckily the cost of gas is starting to go down... Now it is only $40 to fill the tank instead of $55+. Hmmm...

Another day of chaois...... Off to put the boys to bed...

A New Morning, a Fresh Start?

Well after my psycho rambling and attempt at deep thoughts last night, I figured a good night's sleep would do me some good.
Not sure if that was totally the answer but we will see.

Today I am taking my 2 boys to get professional pictures taken, Nathan is almost 6 months and we will see what happens.. I have tons of pictures I've taken so its not like there aren't pics I just thought it would be a good idea to get pictures taken on them.

A New Year and a new view?

Wow, I didn't realize it had been so long since my last posting... I have reset my homepage to blogger.com inhopes that I keep a better blog. We will see.

Every day I hear about making New Year's resolutions and realize that I am not even considering resolutions this year... Perhaps its a new view, but most likely its just growing up and knowing that no matter what happens I don't keep the damn things so why make them.

Things to consider for the new year though...
Goals are better than resolutions. Goals have steps where resolutions seem so forced.
A game plan will help me keep up with my Goals... Perhaps I will set up a different blog just for my baby steps and my goals... It might keep me on track a little better...

My life and my house seem to be in total disarray, I think its time to focus some of my energies on creating a more peaceful existance. I see all this stuff about ZEN and wonder if maybe there isn't something to be said for it... if my world was simplier perhaps (I can dream) I would be less stressed and more at peace...

This next week with be another adventure in the toddler years... But thats another blog all its own too.... I could create a Blog for the boys.... Heck thats what their scrapbooks are for...

Off to bed, its late and the boys will be up sooner than I like to think...
Good Night Moon@!