9/11 reflections

I've been thinking about this blog all day and wasn't sure I was going to write it..

I've had the Allan Jackson song in my head all day...

Where were you when the world stop turning????



Mike and I were getting ready for work and since we didn't have a TV at the time we listened to the radio... 99.5 fm with Mike and Amy in the Mornings. Now anyone that has ever listened to Mike and Amy knows Amy would cry or get teary eyed for almost anything... so I didn't register anything when I heard Amy "crying" on the radio... Then it dawned on me, something was really really wrong... I hooked up my laptop (the only computer at the time that had internet (dial up at that)) and tried to find a news station online that would show me what they were talking about... I was in awe.

I went to work, I was working for Bank of America at the time in mortgage lending and the entire day was surreal. We waited to hear news of our fellow employees as well as the rest of our fellow Americans. Since the markets were closed the entire day was spent waiting and watching while trying to keep focused on our work. By the grace of God we only lost 3 fellow employees but the loss to the Nation was so deep.

Last year , on 9/11 Cameron watched a program and asked me about the airplanes and the towers. I couldn't figure out a way to explain it to my then 3 year old son... So I did the only thing I knew and showed him the pages in my scrapbook, a tribute to the lives lost on that day and the strength we showed as a Nation following. The awesomeness of the field of flags, the candles on the water, the people gathering. I want my children to know that One Nation Under God is one of the most meaningful messages we can send to the world outside.

Never forget...

I am reminded on a verse in Deuteronomy.

Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart as long as you live. Teach them to your children and to their children after them. Deut 4:9 (NIV

first day of preschool

Well we survived the first day of Preschool.

Cameron was so cute. I took him into his class and helped him find his name tag. We looked around the room a little and thats when I started to tear up, he sweetly said, "it's ok Mommy" as he wiped a tear from my cheek and gave me a kiss.. (what a gentlehearted child I have) anyway, we met our neighbor girl at school and Cameron told us his favorite part of the first day was Snack Time (this coming from the kid who doesn't eat..).

He loves his teachers already and said he thinks he is going to like school.

I got a picture but will take some more tomorrow now that he is excited about school the pictures might look like it..

Chaois of Life

It is strange... I keep forgetting I have this blog.... I so need to remember and write...
Note to self.... BLOG!!!!

Life is so crazy. I can't belive my baby is 1 and my boy is almost 4... Nathan is 13 months old and walking and talking (well I understand him.... ), he was my suprise gift and I love him dearly...
Cameron will be 4 in a month and is full of energy and spunk, along with an attitude..(hmmm not sure where he gets that.... ha!) I love them both and only wish I could find that love when they are driving me up a wall... Being a mom was something I always thought about but never really focused on... I knew I would have kids some day, but didn't figure I would be a Stay at Home Mom to 2... Life sure throws a lot of curve balls my direction. I'm often not sure where I am heading...

Have you noticed how expensive groceries are...? I even shop at the discount grocery story (Love my Grocery Outlet and Costco) but even than I spent over $60 and it doesn't seem like I got that much... didn't buy diapers this time, or beer, or soda... just food stuff... Luckily the cost of gas is starting to go down... Now it is only $40 to fill the tank instead of $55+. Hmmm...

Another day of chaois...... Off to put the boys to bed...

A New Morning, a Fresh Start?

Well after my psycho rambling and attempt at deep thoughts last night, I figured a good night's sleep would do me some good.
Not sure if that was totally the answer but we will see.

Today I am taking my 2 boys to get professional pictures taken, Nathan is almost 6 months and we will see what happens.. I have tons of pictures I've taken so its not like there aren't pics I just thought it would be a good idea to get pictures taken on them.

A New Year and a new view?

Wow, I didn't realize it had been so long since my last posting... I have reset my homepage to blogger.com inhopes that I keep a better blog. We will see.

Every day I hear about making New Year's resolutions and realize that I am not even considering resolutions this year... Perhaps its a new view, but most likely its just growing up and knowing that no matter what happens I don't keep the damn things so why make them.

Things to consider for the new year though...
Goals are better than resolutions. Goals have steps where resolutions seem so forced.
A game plan will help me keep up with my Goals... Perhaps I will set up a different blog just for my baby steps and my goals... It might keep me on track a little better...

My life and my house seem to be in total disarray, I think its time to focus some of my energies on creating a more peaceful existance. I see all this stuff about ZEN and wonder if maybe there isn't something to be said for it... if my world was simplier perhaps (I can dream) I would be less stressed and more at peace...

This next week with be another adventure in the toddler years... But thats another blog all its own too.... I could create a Blog for the boys.... Heck thats what their scrapbooks are for...

Off to bed, its late and the boys will be up sooner than I like to think...
Good Night Moon@!

The most Wonderful Time of the Year

Wow, I didn't realize how long it had been since I posted a blog...
I was blessed with a beautiful baby boy on August 26, 2005 at 9:58 pm... Nathan Andrew is a joy to have in my life. I feel complete with my children in my life. Cameron loves his baby brother and Nathan is learning so much each day. He looks for his big brother and his eyes light up when Cameron rushes past.

As the holidays frantically roll toward us. I realize I have so much to be thankful for. Last night Cameron and I were talking about what it means to be thankful. He smiled and asked if thankful means you love someone and are happy you have them. Wow!! I can't believe he has this one nailed already. At age 3, he amazes me.. He is so good and so well , 3.

Happy Thanksgiving!

First Blog Day 1

Well its the evening on August 8,2005 and I am still waiting for my 2nd child to make an appearance in this world...

Yesterday we decided to play outside in the evening in hopes the cool air would relax us...
The guys seemed to have a wonderful time... I'm not really sure who had more fun Mike or Cameron....
I watch them play and am amazed, how much they are alike... My husband and my little boy.